Suicide note

Reasons

• To ease the pain of those known to the victim by attempting to dissipate guilt.
• To increase the pain of survivors by attempting to create guilt.
• To set out the reason for suicide.
• To express thoughts and feelings that the person felt unable to express in life.
• To give instructions for disposal of the remains.
• Occasionally, to confess acts of murder or some other offence.

Notable people who left suicide notes

• Leelah Alcorn—American transgender teenage girl who was forced to undergo conversion therapy by her Christian parents.
• Desmond Amofah—American Internet personality who was known by his online alias "Etika". Prior to his disappearance on June 19, 2019, Amofah published what would be his final YouTube video simply titled "I'm sorry", in which he apologized for his manic behavior in the months prior to the video, admitting to having mental health issues. Alluding to suicidal thoughts in the video, Amofah said, "I hope that my story maybe helps to make YouTube a better place in the future where people know boundaries and limits and how far things should go." Although YouTube removed the video for violating its Community Guidelines, Amofah's fans reposted the video on other outlets.
• Bill Zeller—American programmer and creator of myTunes, who suffered with the traumatic and existential effects of child sexual abuse, and who requested that his suicide note should be widely circulated online in its entirety.
• Korechika Anami—"I - with my death - humbly apologize to the Emperor for the great crime." Historians are divided as to what crime he was referring to. It is possibly a reference to his part in the aborted coup against the Emperor Hirohito in the hours following Japan's decision to surrender at the end of World War II.
• Roger Angleton—Murderer and brother of famous bookmaker Doris Angleton.
• José Manuel Balmaceda—Chilean president.
• J. Clifford Baxter—Enron Corporation executive.
• Clara Blandick—American film actress, most famous for playing Aunt Em in the 1939 film The Wizard of Oz. Her note began, "I am now about to make the great adventure".
• Eustace Budgell—English writer: "What Cato did, and Addison approved, cannot be wrong."
• Leslie Cheung—Hong Kong actor and musician who suffered from clinical depression.
• Eduardo Chibás—Cuban politician and radio celebrity, killed himself during the broadcast of his programme, making his speech during it a kind of oral suicidal note, protesting against the widespread corruption of the ruling regime.
• Christine Chubbuck—American anchor of WXLT TV who committed suicide during a newscast.
• Kurt Cobain—Lead singer of Nirvana. The note is addressed to his childhood imaginary friend and gives his reasons for leaving Nirvana, followed by a message to his wife, Courtney Love, and to his daughter, Frances Bean Cobain. The note made reference to Freddie Mercury and quoted the line "It's better to burn out than to fade away" from the song "Hey Hey, My My" from Neil Young's album Rust Never Sleeps.
• Ida Craddock—Facing prison in 1902 for sending through the U.S. Mail sexually explicit marriage manuals she had authored, Craddock penned a lengthy public suicide note to her readers condemning Anthony Comstock, sponsor of the Comstock Act under which she was convicted.
• Ian Curtis—Lead singer of Joy Division. In the early hours of 18 May 1980, Curtis hanged himself in the kitchen of his house at 77 Barton Street, Macclesfield. He had just viewed Werner Herzog's film Stroszek and listened to Iggy Pop's The Idiot.
• Adam Czerniaków—Head of the Judenrat in the Warsaw Ghetto. He refused to help round up Jews and committed suicide on July 23, 1942 by swallowing a cyanide pill, a day after the commencement of mass extermination of Jews known as the Grossaktion Warsaw. He left his wife a note that read: "They are demanding that I kill the children of my people with my own hands. There is nothing for me to do but to die." His other note to one of his fellow members of the Judenrat, explained: "I can no longer bear all this. My act will prove to everyone what is the right thing to do."
• Dalida—Popular French singer. She wrote, "Life has become unbearable... forgive me."
• Brad Delp—Lead vocalist of the rock band Boston who left the following note: "Mr. Brad Delp. "J'ai une âme solitaire". I am a lonely soul."
• T. E. Dunville—English music hall performer; suffering depression, he drowned himself in 1924, leaving his wife a note including the words "I feel I cannot bear it any longer."
• R. Budd Dwyer—Pennsylvania politician who, during a recorded televised news conference, read a prepared statement and then shot himself.

• George Eastman—Inventor of 35 mm film and founder of Eastman Kodak. His note simply read, "To my friends: my work is done. Why wait?"
• Lee Eun-ju—South Korean actress. She left a suicide note scrawled in blood, in which she wrote, "Mom, I am sorry and I love you." A separate note said, "I wanted to do too much. Even though I live, I'm not really alive. I don't want anyone to be disappointed. Money is not everything, but the world is suffering because of it."
• Justin Fashanu—gay English soccer player, charged with sexual assault in Maryland. His suicide note denied the charges, stating that the sex was consensual, and that he had fled to England because he felt he could not get a fair trial because of his homosexuality, and it added "I realised that I had already been presumed guilty. I do not want to give any more embarrassment to my friends and family."
• James Forrestal—Former United States Secretary of Defense and Secretary of the Navy.
• Vince Foster— Deputy White House Counsel during the first few months of U.S. President Bill Clinton's administration, and also a law partner and friend of Hillary Clinton. A suicide note of sorts, in actuality a draft resignation letter, was found torn into 27 pieces in his briefcase. The letter contained a list of complaints, specifically including, "The WSJ editors lie without consequence" and lamenting, "I was not meant for the job or the spotlight of public life in Washington. Here ruining people is considered sport."
• Misao Fujimura—high school student studying philosophy who wrote the suicide note on a tree; the suicide resulted in many copycat suicides.
• Romain Gary—French writer. He wrote a suicide note explaining the reasons of his suicide and then shot himself in the mouth. Apart from his suicide note, he had stated: "I really had fun. Goodbye and thank you."
• Pete Ham—Leader of the rock group Badfinger. Ham's note blamed the group's manager for his financial ruin, calling him "...a soulless bastard. I will take him with me."
• Tony Hancock—British comedian, who died in 1968. Suicide note included the line "Things just seemed to go too wrong, too many times".
• Mitchell Heisman, a 35-year-old who held a bachelor's degree in psychology from Albany University. His suicide note was notable due to its unconventional format; at 1,905 pages, spanning topics concerning human nature, society, religion, technology, and science, the suicide "note" was more akin to a grand philosophical tome. Heisman published his book, Suicide Note, online for free download within a day of finally shooting himself on the Harvard University Campus.
• Rudolf Hess—Nazi war criminal who committed suicide in Spandau Prison. "Thanks to the directors for addressing this message to my home. Written several minutes before my death."
• Abbie Hoffman—American political activist and author of Steal This Book, who gained infamy as part of the anti-Vietnam War protest trial Chicago Eight. He suffered from bipolar disorder, and died in April 1989.
• Kim Jong-hyun—South Korean singer-songwriter and main vocalist of the boy band Shinee. He had sent a note to a friend in which he wrote: "The depression that was slowly devouring me at last consumed me.... What else can I say more. Just tell me I've done well. That this is enough." Following his death, his fans paid tribute to him on social media with the viral hashtag "#YouDidWellJonghyun", a reference to his final request in his note.
• Jerzy Kosiński—Polish-American novelist. He wrote, "I am going to put myself to sleep now for a bit longer than usual. Call it Eternity."
• Martin Manley —American sports writer and statistician, who worked for the Kansas City Star. To cut short his perceived ongoing descent into dementia, he committed suicide on his 60th birthday in the parking lot of a police station, shooting himself while still on the phone with 911 informing them of the act. Manley spent over a year preparing an extensive website outlining the rationale behind his suicide. While Yahoo soon took it offline, citing a violation of its TOS, mirrors of the entire site are still available.
• Yukio Mishima—Japanese writer. His suicide note explained his reasons for attempting to incite mutiny amongst the Japanese Self-Defense Forces.
• Roh Moo-hyun—former South Korean president. The note expressed his remorse to the people, claiming to be a "burden for others".
• John Noble—Las Vegas resident who left a 270-page note with a table of contents and a 2-hour DVD before shooting himself at the M Resort buffet after having a "free buffet for life" prize rescinded by the resort due to his subsequent behavior there.
• Per Yngve "Dead" Ohlin—Lead singer of the black metal group Mayhem, whose suicide note famously read, in part, "Excuse all the blood" and included an apology for the loud gunshot.
• Freddie Prinze—American actor and comedian, famous for his role on the sitcom Chico and the Man. He is the father of Freddie Prinze Jr.
• Elliot Rodger—Mass murderer behind the 2014 Isla Vista massacre. He left behind a 108,000-word memo entitled My Twisted World and an eight-minute YouTube video describing what he was about to do.
• George Sanders—Academy Award-winning British actor. His note stated only: "Dear World, I am leaving because I am bored. I feel I have lived long enough. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool. Good luck."

• Elliott Smith—Singer/songwriter who suffered from addiction and depression. The note, according to the coroner, read "I'm so sorry—love, Elliot. God forgive me." The misspelling of the name is believed to be the fault of the coroner, but it is still unclear whether it was a suicide or not.
• Randy Stair—Supermarket worker who shot his three colleagues dead and then killed himself, after barricading the store; he posted extensive online documents and "suicide tapes" suggesting the killings were something he had planned out meticulously over a number of months. Randy was conflicted about his gender identity and wrote in his journal: "I'm a girl who’s been trapped in a man's body".
• Pál Teleki—Former Prime Minister of Hungary, who committed suicide on 3 April 1941, while he received a call that is thought to have advised him that the German army had just started its march into Hungary to invade Yugoslavia. He wrote his suicide note to Head of State and Regent Miklós Horthy.
• Hunter S. Thompson—Creator of gonzo journalism
• Lisandro de la Torre—Argentinian lawyer, politician and senator who fought against his government's corrupt officers during the "Década Infame" of the 1930s. Finally, abandoned by his allies and believing his struggle to be lost, he committed suicide, leaving a note describing the desperate situation he was in.
• Getúlio Vargas—Lawyer, politician and Brazilian president who used his suicide and suicide note as a political weapon against his enemies.
• Mike Von Erich—Wrestler who committed suicide after thinking that he was not as good as he had been prior to a shoulder injury. His brothers Kerry and Chris also committed suicide.
• David Foster Wallace—Award-winning American novelist, short story writer, and essayist who left a two-page note and neatly arranged the manuscript for The Pale King before hanging himself on the patio.
• Keith Wayne—Stage name for an actor known for his only role as Tom in the 1968 cult horror movie Night of the Living Dead. He later became a chiropractor and write a column called Chiropractic Corner in Hardgainer magazine under the name of "Dr. R. Keith Hartman" had an unusual combination of medical advice and a suicide note as evidenced by its title How to Find Chiropractic Help, Bursitis and Tendinitis, Sternum Noises, Knee and Neck Care; plus the Notice of the Death of Dr. Hartman.
• Bob Welch—Fleetwood Mac guitarist/vocalist from 1971 to 1974.
• Wendy O. Williams—Lead singer of American Punk band Plasmatics who left the following suicide note: "I don't believe that people should take their own lives without deep and thoughtful reflection over a considerable period of time."
• Virginia Woolf—English feminist author and poet. Her suicide note iterated that she feared she was on the brink of what would have been the latest in a series of breakdowns, and that she would rather die than endure another such episode. Her note concluded with a message to her husband telling him that she loved him and thanking him for the time they had together.